Wednesday, August 25, 2010
HUMP DAY LIKE THE WORLDS BIGGEST SPEED BUMP DAY
Well-here we are: the day that you're having making you wonder why you want to get up and do the same thing tomorrow-guess its like the old country,corny song-never promised you a rose garden-but does it have to mean walking thru a brier patch either-sorry--thats my pity party for this moment-notice i didn't say the day since it ain't over but you get my drift-anyway-i work with this one lady who has ALWAYS been sick a bunch ihope yall get what i mean by this-in my job i see people who are REALLY sick-you guys out there reading this know where im coming from-to the coworker i say-shut up until you are the one who is really sick and the start your whining-til then quit your bitching-anyway, this is still going ok for me but still struggling like i knew i would-like i said about the coupla days i wasn't here life threw me a curveball-hell-i owned the world series for those by now(in my life,anyway i feel,not to some who have been thru so much worse than me)-it just seems like they all come at such a bad time-then i start to thinking-well,when is a good time for life to suck-when i look back over jims blog who inspired me to do this i know i am rambling so please bear with me maybe i can figure this out one day and write more coherently but for now this is just me-so anyway i do my job and i come home to the same old problems and the same old empty feelings and i know that nothing is going to solve these but me getting honest with myself and since its so soon in this battle i decided to open the bible-now i am sure not going to turn turn this in anything biblical-christian-religious but i thought to my myself hell ive tried everything else and besides i truly do think jesus is a man i could definitely sit down and talk to-his dad,im still scared of him,we hopefully will get there in time-anyway i opened my bible just let it fall and this is where i landed in psalms-call out for understanding-search for it as silver-turn your ear to wisdom-you will find it-this is all of course paraphrased-but it meant to me what jim and i and all of who have been seeking SO DAMN LONG-we can find it if we truly want it- i know jim is on his way and i am trying to also-i realize this is rambling but work has been busy,not stressful,not physical but dealing with sickness day in and out does take its toll-also my own things going on which will be dealt with in a later blog -i hope-thank you again for the kind words-and just for knowing that you truly take the time to read what i have to say even when what i might say is stupid/boringwhatever to you-means a bunch to someone who is smart enough to be here but stupid enough to let it all go-Cynthia
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Hi Cynthia, Sorry I'm commenting on both your blogs one after another, but a friend invited me overnight to her Oregon Coast beachhouse, so I'm trying to catch up now. Hey, you can ramble all you want.......just keep these blogs coming, as in time, things will get clearer and clearer. And if people are bugging you at work, just go ahead and vent it on here! I think venting helps release some of the anger or annoyance with those people. I've got to go start dinner (6:24PM in Portland) but keep those blogs coming and I will always be here to support and encourage you. I have faith in you that you ARE going to succeed! Nancy
ReplyDeletePsalms is a good place to start. If you feel like you don't know how to pray, just read the Psals as if you're praying, because that's what most of the Psalms are, prayers. Proverbs is also a good book for figuring out how to cope with day to day living. It's just loaded with gems of wisdom. In fact, it makes a great devotional book, because it has exactly 31 chapters, one for each day of the month. Just start over again every month until it begins to sink in.
ReplyDeleteRambling is okay by me. In fact, it's a good way to start when you have so much to say and don't know where to start. We're all here for you. Life can be hard, but it's worth it! So, as Winston Churchill so famously said, "Never give up!"
Blessings,
Jack